Coming together.

So it's been a while since I have written. I truly have missed it. It helps me breath a lot more easier when I allow myself to be put into words. I am currently working hard on creating wonderful pieces of jewelry. I am excited to put out my work and see what happens. I am also anxious as to whether or not my pieces will sell. But it is with that thought that I must remember that the journey is far more important than the outcome. I love what I am doing, I feel secure in the beauty that is being created. But as with any thought of the unknown, I allow the fear to sway my journey. There is no proof that my work will pay off financially, but there is the knowledge that if you do not try at something and put yourself out there, you will never know what you are capable of. Do not allow fear to prevent you from taking chances and risks. Life can be a challenge yes, but life is also meant to be lived.

Climb your mountain.

Pushing forth.

So this jewelry thing......I now realize that I'm going a little deeper than I had planned to. And not just deep into my own pocket. I'm learning so much from making mistakes, from going a little step further every time. I don't really have enough flow of money to be doing what I am doing, and yet I cannot help but take the risk anyway. It is very easy to put my plans aside and continue to do the day jobs that take care of the bills, but then the passion for such is not there. Giving into such an easy plan does not sit well. Know matter how much of a struggle I may find myself in, I still cannot give up. And I urge anyone reading this, that if you have your plans and dreams that you are thinking of putting back on that shelf...."STOP!"
Don't give up, instead give in. Give in to your passion, for it is a feeling from where dreams grow and become your reality.

Beginning With Me

You may wonder where your travels take you when you have no map.
You may decide that fear itself will pull you back into reverse.
You may give in to the ultimate plan of whats expected.
Do you desire what is expected,
Or do you recognize the flaws within the perfection?

Everything arrives in perfect time, just be sure it was what you wanted.
Too many in this frozen state think they have found their home.
Are you ready to pull the blinds and see beyond your self created wounds?
Happiness and dreams are of choice.

Know who you are before you decide what you want.

PURSUIT

I travel this road alone in my thoughts
Unknown at times to the surrounding efforts given by the universe,
Unknown to the omnipresent energy that feeds me through every uncertain step.
I yearn for proof of a life that reflects my deepest dreams.
I want no less, my passion is too deep, my drive is too strong.
I must go on.
I cannot look back, for fear sees me and encourages me to turn with false love.
I do not want to lose what I now have gained, it is not a gift so easily attained.
To share I must, but only through my experience, my trust.
I open all doors.
I am ready to stride.

"Yet another project!"

Okay, so I have already stated my current projects I am working on, but for someone like myself I obviously do not quite feel challenged enough. I have started yet another project. This had no plan, just an idea that decided to join me on my way home from work. I was trying to forget about it, erase the never-ending ideas that were coming through to me. This I can confidently tell you did not work, and yet I am excited about it. Part of me feels crazy for manifesting another creative part of myself, but hey I cannot help myself. It breathes and lives through me as if strapped up to a ventilator. If I ignore how this attachment feeds me, I am in fact ignoring myself, and if you knew my past you would understand that going backwards is not a place I care to visit. I am loving this new found expression. It's like an express line to your soul, I feel blessed and alive.
There is maybe only one problem, if indeed it is a problem....
How do I decide which project deserves the most attention?
At this point I am running with it, full speed ahead, doing what I feel and anxious for the completion. Of course I am aware that allowing in any anxiety will only slow down my work. I am still learning.

Oh! so the other project: a fictional story that has not yet decided if it needs a hard back, or an actor to bring it's lines to life.
To be continued......

The first order of this week is......................to allow you all in on my travel towards gaining more self confidence. After all it took me a whole bunch just to log in.

Was it really something to fear?...not really. This part was actually quite easy, but what makes me nervous is that I am probably going to share quite a bit in the coming months.

I started this blog to allow you in during my progress of becoming the true artist that I am. I have three projects that I am working on:

1. My book.

2. My website for my jewelry line.

3. To continue my growth as a painter.

and due to me giving excuses from time to time, of not having time to work on one of these projects. I decided I needed to release, and when needed.........a swift kick up the back side if you are reading this.

I desire to know more artists, more people with an attention to what this world needs. I wish to know more people that are wide open and ready to make the changes in their life, and to truly remember what it is like to be alive.

I am open:)

So here I go. My very first blog.

I have come on here to share my dreams, my fears, and every other thought provoking subject of belief. I am 100% creative on the inside. I am now learning to completely recognize that fact and allow it to over take all that I currently am. I live a life that is needed, for example, work, bills, and other responsibility's. I may not like everything about it, but it is my life.

Although now, I am very ready to take on the challenge of completely focusing on my dreams. Not just my desires of achievements however, but my dreams of trusting myself in what I do, and in who I am. I have a wonderful life that I love, and as I said earlier......I may not like every part of it, but I appreciate it, I own it, and I love that I have the ability to truly feel it.